Side Game: Dystopia

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In the world you are entering, there is a Federation. There is an Enterprise. There is even a Captain Kirk.

But in this world, they are not as you know them.

George Lowther, 27, is the captain of the pirate ship known throughout the galaxy as the Enterprise. Of course, he's not the real George Lowther, and neither was the man before him, a fellow called Chris Pike. They're in the process of trading the identity, so Pike can retire, having made his fortune. The new Lowther, real name James T. Kirk, has hired on a crew, and they're off on their first voyage, affiliated with the Federation of Interstellar Pirates.

So. How's the crew doing? And, of course, who's fucking?

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[emmypenny.livejournal.com]

ANOTHER MIX BORDERING ON THE RIDICULOUS EPIC LONGNESS OF THE FIRST ONE

No Bernie is being a brat. Kiwi is all sleepy and the tips of his ears are all pinkish.

How are you today?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_samalander/]

EEEEEE I LOVE THE FIRST ONE I USE IT AS WORKOUT MUSIC

Bad Bernie, be cuter.

Still feeling like shit, but I'm seeing my shrink tonight, so maybe I'll feel better.

[emmypenny.livejournal.com]

SERIOUSLY? YOU HAVE JUST ROCKED MY WORLD. I HAD NO IDEA ANYONE EVEN LISTENED TO IT AT ALL.

Bernie keeps doing a whiny squeak. I think Peri would like it.

Oh darling, I'm sorry. I hope you do feel better. I know there's not much I can do way over here, but let me know if there's anything I can do. You've always been so good to me.

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I HAVE PLAYLISTS FOR ALL THREE OF THE STD FANMIXES IN MY ITUNES AND HEARING "IN THIS DIARY" MAKES ME SMILE EVERY TIME.

Peri was talkative again this morning. Also hungry for feet.

I texted my friend Joe when my grandmother got sick. We've been friends for 5 years, since our fathers were both sick in the hospital at the same time and we were working in the costume shop. Since then his father has been sick and EVERY SINGLE time I called I asked about him, checked in whatever. So Grandma gets sick and I text Joe that she had a stroke. One Monday, three weeks later, all I've gotten is a condolence text. No calls, no check ins. So I texted him. "I'm pissed off that you never called to see how my grandma was."

Silence. He has time to update his facebook. But not time to talk to me. So I'm sorta mourning losing him. Thinking about writing him an email and then just, removing him from my life. But I don't want to be melodramatic. And I don't want to lose him. It hurts.

[emmypenny.livejournal.com]

SERIOUSLY? I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

Oh Peri. Please don't eat Sam's feet. I think she might need them one day.

I'm sorry. It's hard when you are relying on someone to be there for you and then they aren't. It's hurtful, but at the same time, he's your friend and you need your friends when you're in the midst of a hard time. And while under normal circumstances, it may be easy to cut those ties because someone hasn't been there for you, no one wants to do that when all they wanted in the first place was some comfort.

It's not melodramatic to say that his inaction was hurtful and that you are questioning continuing your friendship because of it. That's just honesty. Maybe, even with your text, he may have not realized just how hurtful he was. After explaining it to him one more time (guys are quite dense sometimes), if he doesn't step up and give you the support you expect from him, then I don't think you would be wrong in removing him from your life.

I can say that in my experience, no relationship is perfectly even. But it's up to you to determine what level of unevenness you are willing to tolerate. My best friend was not there for me when my dad died. He didn't know how to deal with it. He never did emotional things well. It was a big event for me and it was hurtful, but I still wanted to continue having him in my life. But prior to that, he had been there for me for four years of our life together as I took and took and took from him. Our friendship was based off of me needing him and him constantly and lovingly giving to me whenever I needed it without asking for anything in return. So much so that by the time I really did need him, there wasn't anything else for him to give me. But I realized how little I had been there for him in return over the years, and I sought to make it up to him by being supportive of him as he dealt with being a gay vegan in a mostly conservative town. Later, our friendship ended and I think the breaking point of it was my inability to support him in the same manner as he had me.

Looking back, I realize that my efforts were too little too late. He had supported me for four years without asking for anything in return and then I had just demanded more when I should have been paying him back little by little. I can't blame him for not offering his support when I had already taken all he had to give. And now I feel so guilty that I could not be there for him when he obviously needed me. But he never vocalized that need. And I think perhaps if you e-mail your friend and tell him calmly and clearly how he hurt you and why you feel that hurt, maybe he'll get the picture before I did and you two will be able to salvage it.

(Also, have to go to the store now with mom. Back later)